I never thought I could feel that way ever, I thought I was a lost cause. Never thought such strong feelings where possible. Never thought that one day I would sing along tonlove song under the hot running. Always been stoic in life, reason would keep emotions in bound, vigilant to not let my heart stray and unable to feel anything beyond friendship.
Never expected to be a bit disappointed when I saw some pictures of you and an anonymous girl smiling happily in a warm embrace. never expected my heart would do a somersault in my chest when I heard that you had left the girl I had seen in your pictures. Never thought that my heart would melt when you decided to sit next to me and hug me goodbye.
Yes, I cannot lie, I would be sad if the feelings are not reciprocated, I would curse my luck and wonder if I will ever find the right person.
But right now I am just happy, happy that I feel the cold heart ice around my heart melting form the heat of those new feelings. I gleefully let my feelings take the rains for once in my life. Happy that I am able to feel that way and I savour each second of my heart beating faster every time you look at me with your tender blue eyes and talk to me.
I will probably end up with my hopes not being fulfilled but I am just glad that I am able to dream again, able to feel again and able to desire another person. That is enough for me, I think I finally exited that dark tunnel that held me captive.